Rebecca's Life

I love Jeremy's away message for some reason it speak to me and I wanted to post it

Think twice before you judge me
Think twice before you say the wrong thing
Do you love me like I love you
is your love as strong as you say it is
does your heart burn for me
am i like the air you need to live
well if not then think twice before you say a word
Think twice before you say the wrong thing

How can I last these last weeks I am going crazy.. I miss college, I miss my friends, I miss my bed, And I miss Mike when can I be in his arm again and even if I am I pray that he looks at me the same way as a lover and not just as a friend

I can't believe it is Thursday already this week went by so fast I pray that all the other weeks home go by this fast. Here is the break-down

Monday- Went to work I was surprised that I got up at 8am. I was the first person there besides D. H. I got to see Stella I love that dog more every time I see her. It was not busy at all so I got to hang out and I only worked a half day. Latter in the evening Megan called me and asked me if I wanted to sleep over. Thankfully my parents said yes I couldn't wait a night away from my boring house. At Meg's it was so much fun we made smores with her kit that she got for christmas and talked. They made me watch Mash and it wasn't that bad. I would even watch it if it was on tv when i have nothing else to do.

Tuesday- Woke up at 1pm I was so surprised I had no idea that I could even sleep in that late. Megan made us Mac and Chesse. Then we were watching somemore Mash and I went back to sleep I had no idea why I am so tired. When I got up Meg handed me the phone because it was my mom. Of corse I am in trouble that I didn't call and when am I coming home? Big deal when are they not going to yell at me.. It feel like whatever I do it wrong. So I came home and was told that Ryan (my sisters boyfriend) is coming over today. I completly freaked out my room was a mess and I didnt shower yet. So I ran into the shower took a quick one got out and started cleaning up I even manged cleaning my bathroom. Then Ryan was over I was in such a bad mood because seeing my sister and Ryan made me realize how much I miss Mike why do we have to be off for another 3 weeks I am tired of missing everyone I want to go back. My sister thought we could watch Under The Tusan Sun I only watched an hour of it with them because I had to work at Harborside the next morning.

Wednesday- Got up and went to work. Worked the whole morning it wasn't that busy though. Came home for lunch then went back. I told Ali that she could go home because she was sick. Ever since she left I was coughing and sneezing I felt so bad I went through a whole box of tissues. So now I have this lovely cold that I want to try and fight. Went to bed early because my head was pounding.

Thursday- Got to sleep in... I woke up around 10ish went to Liz's to feed the cats sat with them and came home. I have yet again started watching Sex And The City. For some reason I started with the fourth season this time. Don't you just love it when you feel sick and all what you want to do is sleep and you get yelled at it. My garbadge bag is filled of tissues my ear are blocked up so I can't hear shit and my head is still pounding. And the parents have to say that I lock myself in the room to much. Hello I am sleeping that is what you do when you are sick you sleep and rest so u can get better. Duh I am on my own page I am used to doing what I want to do when I want to do it.

My Plans for tomorrow night backfired on me. Petra can't sleep over so I am stuck at home alone. I am to chicken to ask my parents if I can go see a movie with a few friends. So my New Years Eve Plans are praying that I get to see Mike but I know that is not going to happen so I am thinking off going across the street and sitting with the cats and feeling sorry for myself. How does that sound. I hate New Years Eve. If I was up at Delhi there would of been so many good parties to go to I am sure that Matt would of made one just for us. Well that basically tell you what has gone on this week talk to you later

Hmm Break I thought it would be a good thing just being able to relax and not do anything I was so wrong. It is so annoying being home I have no idea what I am going to do this summer. I can't wait to go back up to Delhi I miss it so much. The best thing about college is you are able to learn what you want to learn and do what you want. At home you have parents bugging you all the time and it is so annoying why can't they just leave you alone. Just because I am in my room all the time doesn't mean something is wrong I just want to be by myself. I mean think of it like this up at colllege you are always around people you never have time to yourself to do whatever you want to do. So that is what I am trying to do over break and it is totally falling. I miss my friends so much but I am enjoying seeing my friends from back home.
Christmas day was great so busy. I got basically everything I wanted. Latter at night I just wanted to get out of the house so Petra said I could go over to get my christmas present from her and swing over to Lilly's to get my present from her. It ended up being going to Starbucks to get coffee and get some for John Dolan we even gave him door to door service. I love seeing my friends that is the only time when I am at home that I feel at home. I don't mind sitting in the house and watch tv or just hanging out but my parents freak out about it I just wish that Januaray 23 is tomorrow and I can go back to Delhi.
Tomorrow and Tuesday I am working at Harborside. I can't wait. The getting up is going to be a challenge but I am happy to be around animals yet again and make some money. If I am lucky Lauren will let me work until 8pm on Tuesday. Oh I hope.... I can't wait for new years to be done with everyone is making plans and I have nothing.. Hopefully Petra can sleep over like last year because that was a blast. We are thinking about doing another King Parks day before me and Petra go back to college. I want it to be a whole group of us. It would be alot of fun... Well nothing really to say I hope everyone's Christmas was good. Talk to you soon

Yesterday was suppose to be a good day but it wasn't at all. We were going to do a KP day Me, Max, and Danny. Danny said you couldn't so it was just going to be and Max but we figured Jackie can go with us. So we went to KP and somewhere inbetween Mike meet up with us. He was getting upset at me that I was flirting with Max! I don't flirt with him that is just how we act around each other. Then Danny meet up with us and gave me a big hug. I was very happy to see him. I am so confused because my crush for Danny is just growing bigger and bigger. I guess time will tell what will happen with that one. I was to see Danny do the light for Mircacle on 34th Street yesterday it was really good. which i got to see him more but he was working. I want to be alone with him and see what happenes why am I always searching for a relationship I give time will tell.

I can't believe how long I haven't written in this thing. I have a life I am not by my computer 247 anymore. I got out and hang with friends and study well the studying is all the time. It is so weird being done with my first semster of college. So much stuff has happened since I updated I dont even know where to being. Maybe I should start with I am not dating Saurabh any more and I like someone else. I don't know it is weird because in high school I liked only one person for the 3 years and know everyone up at Delhi is so nice you got to love them all. I hate it when guys have to be big assholes and don't trust you at all. Every friday night we have a party in my friend Red room his real name is John which freaks me out but we just call him Red. The parties consit of all of us hanging out taking pictures blasting music and just havening a great time. The best part of these parties are the black light. I never knew this but if you get a highlighter and draw on yourself it shows up under the blacklight. So we have fun drawing on each other and all. Blue gave me all the pictures from the parties and it so weird how much I have changed since high school. I mean at these parties I dance! I didnt go to prom because I hate to dance.
Finals ugh the word that I hate. I think they went okay I know I did really good on my chem and my intro to vet sci. I am so glad that we are done for a month but I am going to miss my friends. Before we all left we painted our fingers black as a symbol as friends forever we are more like a family than anything else.
Leaving Delhi was the hardest thing I had to do wait maybe not I think it was close with leaving for college. I have so many friends up here that I am going to miss so much. But It is going to be great to see all my friends from back home. I feel so weird beginning home because I think of myself acting different up at Delhi. And when I come here it is just a flashback of what I use to be. That is what is suppose to happen right? When you go to college you are suppose to change not stay the same person you where in high school.
I can't wait for tomorrow hopefully we are doing a KP day I really want to see Max and Melissa and Mike might be coming out well that is it for now talk to you later

Sorry that i haven't written in a while I have been so busy with finals so close. Okay my Thanksgiving break here is how it went:

Monday- Got home late around 12 in the am so it was really Tuesday Basically unpacked and went to bed because I was so tired so I crashed on my bed and went to sleep.

Tuesday- Omg I over slept ahh I was suppose to go to tech and see Max and everyone at tech but I only woke up at 11:30 am I even forgot to call Saurabh :(. I feel so bad. I went to the eye doctor and yes I got even more blind than I already am. I hate having glasses they suck ass.

Wednesday- I remembered to go to Tech today. It was so much fun surprisingly Meslissa was being supper nice to me today hmm weird. We were playing around and joking around with Max. Every time I walk into that building it looks the same but yet I look so different. I was so happy that I got to see Mrs K and Mrs V I miss them so much. Every time I had a problem in life I knew I can always count on them if I need to. Then I came back home got some stuff done around the house and then when to the high school. I got to see Ms. Douglas. I was so happy that I got to see her she was my favorite teacher in high school and i miss her so much. Then later that night I picked Petra up at the train station and brought her home I was happy because I was the first person that saw her. Then I went to babysit Amanda and then when straight to Meg's house for the poker party. It was Me, Petra, Lilly, Chris, and Meg it was alot of fun. Got home from that and crashed was so tired from running around all day.

Thursday- It was a good thanksgiving good food and seeing my family was good also went to bed early because I had work at 8am at Harborside I am got happy about waking up so early when i am so stuffed and so tired

Friday- I got to work at Harborside today. I hated getting up at 6:30 in the morning but after I did I was really excited to go to work. When I got there it felt so weird because I haven’t work there in months. I walked in and went to the back and had a ten pound pug run up to me jumping all around me. I sat down and said Stella! I was so happy to see her I missed her so much. She is my buddy. I remember when she got hit by a car last December and I use to sit in her cage and just pet her. Anwayz at work it was so busy we had to have Sandy come in and help us. It was good though I really helped out and I have learned stuff at college. I got out of work around 5:30 pm. When home my Dad made dinner and then it was off to John’s party. OMG the party was wonderful. It was so good seeing John and everyone again. I love that kid I really saw his senstive side he is just a sweet heart.

Saturday- Got up early and went shopping with Mom & Sarah. Then came home relaxed for a little bit and it was off to babysiting Amanda. Liz had pizza for us so we ate real fast and it was off to see the Spongebob movie. Sam and Max met us there. It was really good to see Sam I haven’t seen her in a while and she is like my little sister. When we were watching the Spongebob movie me and Max were flirting and he kissed me I don’t know why I just knew that when I get back to Delhi I would have to tell Saurabh and I don’t want to do that. After the Spongebob movie Max’s dad picked him and Sam up and I brought me and Amanda home. She feel asleep in the car she was so tired I felt so bad that i wiped her out.

Sunday- Got up at 8am and sat in the car with Sarah for four hour when she drove me up to Delhi. I can’t believe how much I missed everyone it is weird but it really does feel like home up here I have no idea what I am going to do over the summer when I am away from this people for 3 or 4 months.