Rebecca's Life

I have been wondering does everything happen for a reason ? And if it does why does it always have to be bad stuff that is happening to me. Everything that is happening is tying into each other it is weird. Only 24 more days at Delhi half of me is so happy and the other half is sad. It is weird because I know when I get home and finally unpack all my shit I will be sad. It is sad that alot of people are doing to be done with Delhi. I am really happy for next year though. I finally get a room mate that likes me and doens't make me feel bad. Well anywayz my bed is looking good right now later

This is the song that Saurabh And Me listented to last week and it all makes sense. I can close my eyes and see him right next to me kissing me like he use too. So that would never happen anymore but I can listen to this song over and over and still remember.. The only reason we are not the way we use to be is because I fucked it up. But for some reason this song makes me feel better. Well here it is :

Come stop your crying, it will be all right
Just take my hand, hold it tight
I will protect you from all around you
I will be here don’t you cry

For one so small,you seem so strong
My arms will hold you keep you safe and warm
This bond between us can’t be broken
I will be here don’t you cry

And you’ll be in my heart
Yes, you’ll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You’ll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You’ll be here in my heart
Always

Why can’t they understand the way we feel
They just don’t trust what they can’t explain
I know we’re different but deep inside us
We’re not that different at all

And you’ll be in my heart
Yes, you’ll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You’ll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You’ll be here in my heart
Always

Don’t listen to them, cause what do they know
We need each other, to have and to hold
They’ll see in time, I know

When destiny calls you, you must be strong
I may not be with you, but you gotta hold on
They’ll see in time, I know

We’ll show them together cuz...

You’ll be in my heart
I believe, you’ll be in my heart
I’ll be there from this day on
Now and forever more

You’ll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You’ll be here in my heart always

Always...
I’ll be with you
I’ll be there for you always
Always and always
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
I’ll be there always

Last Night was the night that I needed for a long time. I finally got the answers that I needed to hear. Me and Saurabh went to Farrell Hall and talked. I was scared on what I wanted to say and how he would react but it went really well. It was weird being in Farrell with him all together. Last semster we always went to Farrell and talked. So when we were walking there my heart was pounding. We got there sat down and he said you can lie your head on my legs if you want so I did. Just that made me feel really comfortable. Now I can forget the past and but it in the back of my head and move on. We are just washing the past away and starting fresh. We just need time to forive and forget the past. Hopefully this summer will help.

This week has gone by so fast. It is already Wednesday and it feels like we just got back from spring break. Busy with classes they are all going to good. We have the housing for next year tonight. Last night was one of the weirdest nights ever. You know when you are so happy you can't stop crying. That was my night and after I shedded all those tears I finally see everything clearly. I just wish I can live up to it and not disapoint myself..

Sorry that I haven't writen in this thing is a while life has been to busy. It has been about school work, friends, sleep, and more school work. I have been hanging out in Gerry a fair amount it has been alot of fun. School has been going good I got a 90 on my anatomy practical on Friday so I was very happy about that. I have been sick all weekend tho. I am getting better though. Nothing else going on so I am going to leave it at that