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Why?

Friday, January 13, 2006


Why does it feel like life is so short. Last night I was on myspace looking at my friends friends pages and people that i went to high school with. It is weird that half of my friends that i have on myspace are really not my friends. Why does it feel like all my friendships are spilling away from me. This whole break is one big joke. Everyone saying they will get together is the biggest bullshit ever. All what I am to my friends is just a driver nothing else. The only true friend that i have is Lilly. John, Meg, Chris, Petra... Where Are You Guys? I know that you are busy and have a life but don't say you want to hang out with me and never do. Don't pretend that you miss hanging out with me when you don't. Why are you lying to to yourself..
Why am I questioning everything in life all of a sudden it is weird. Why does Saurabh still get under my skin. What does he want from me I just wish I can have all these answers and not have to think about this stuff. I can't wait until I go to back to Delhi and am with Eric because right now that is the only thing I got...

 

So You Are Still In My Life Why Am I Not Happy

Thursday, January 05, 2006


WOW... i cant believe how long it has been. I think I forogt that I use to keep this thing update. So whats going on nothing that much. Just wanted to make a post with this picture. I got this picture when i got home from break with the caption on here you go. This was on Saurabh's birthday and I decided to be nice and give him a birthday kiss. Why did I do that? No matter how much of an asshole this kid is he still gets to me. It is amazing that he still has that power. When I finally don't want him too. How can i get you out of my life. Why are you still lying to me? So I finally don't care and why does it not even make a difference...